*mutter* dusts off blog..

*cough*

right.. where is that button to.. aha. Now how do I post again? Hello? Anyone still there?

Sorry to have been so spectacularly absent.

Again.

I have not been doing much of anything weight related. Been a mad few weeks. Just been doing life. Feeling good though, not comfort eating/bingeing, not obsessing about the scale. Just living.

I am determined to finish this though, to get to goal. Just, yunno.. it's a lifelong journey, and I intend to live a while yet, so not feeling the need to race myself anymore.

Thanks for nudges.. I am now finding an app so I can blog from my phone. I'll dust the scales off too and get some numbers up ;)

Hoping that the dust will then settle and I can fill you in on the last couple of months, and get back to speed and keep up with my wonderful bloglandfriends.

week 63

and 7lbs off.

171lbs today, back over 50lbs lost, phew. Just .3 of not having an 'obese' BMI too.

twas the night before weigh in...

and I'm so ready to see those numbers move!! Have tracked all week, hoping for a decent drop at the scale tomorrow.



Have done a clear out of my wardrobes. Anything that is anywhere close to giving, size wise, has been bagged for charity. So, no way to pretend I can afford to mess about.

Day out with the boys.

Yesterday Sam and I took the boys to see 'Bob the builder Live' at Fairfield Halls. Booked it back in September, 2 hours before I found out that Sam had lost his job. The tickets were, of course, non-refundable. At £75 they were not cheap either.

The twins, being a bit young to sit still and not try and climb up to ride on Scoop, spent a few hours playing with their Nana and Grandad, who had taken the day off for them =)

Was lots of fun, totally worth doing. The boys were both in awe at seeing their favourite characters right in front of them, and it was nice to spend some time being 100% available for them, not with babies attached.


As I walked down our road to collect the girls from my mums, I was met with my dad pushing a double pram of screeching twins up to me. 4 hours is far too long to manage without milk it seems.. I knew my girls were milkaholics, but at nearly 18mos to not manage a 4 hour break (which included nap and walk) must be on the *my mummy makes the beshtesht milk evah!* end of the scale, lol.

Good day though, on points, no wheat, a bit of walking and 30mins Wii fit - 26mins of which were rhythm boxing.. sweaty.

whoop

one day, 4lbs

That's how much the Wii recorded that I have lost in the last 24 hours. That's how badly I have been overeating..

Yesterday was good. On points, no wheat, went walking, did 30mins on the Wii fit.

Today is going well so far. Breakfasts have been eaten, I have fed the twins and the kids are playing happily for a few so I can type.

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OK, spoke too soon. Anya is now on my lap sobbing because her top is not behaving as she would like..

Anyhow, this afternoon sees another appointment at the hospital for one of my sons. A contributing factor to me having gone so far off the rails has been the ongoing stress of getting through the maze that is the NHS system. Our weekly routine for Malachi is now nearly set. Portage therapist comes here weekly, he has weekly group sessions set up, as well as regular appointments one to one with SALT. Aside from that he has checkups with both his consultant and the audiologist periodically.

Today Seth is going to audiology, as part of his SALT referral. Having gone through the health visiting team, rather than the GP, Seths referral is less involved and much faster than Malachis was. A good thing because the boy is very worried about what is going to happen, and is needing lots of reassurance that it is non-invasive, and mummy will be right there to make sure no-one hurts him.

The set appointments, with people who we know, rather than this constant to-ing and fro-ing is something I really need, for the boys (particularly the eldest one) so they are not wired and freaking!! (and making me want to stuff chocolate in!!)

week 62 - back again

Will fill this out a bit more later - as kids and hubby are not letting me spend longer than 2 seconds at a time to think.

I went to a meeting today, long overdue.

I knew exactly what I was going to see. 30lbs on. Yikes.

Still, I have not been tracking, I have eaten whatever I got my hands on, and too much of it. I have not been as active as I ought to.

Sam starts his new job next week, the time since he was made redundant really has had me all over the place. Having him around has been fun. But my health has suffered.

I will blog all the reasons why I put weight on, and what I *should* have done, another day.

For today I am back to tracking, no wheat, going to make meal plans too..

This flab has got to go, I have no fat clothes left to wear!!