I am not really sick, but am really hating feeling like this - and I know why. This is how I felt every. single. day. at 220lbs+ Every question from my 3yr old smashes my foggied brain. Every spilt drink, dirty nappy, bruised knee requires me to move my tired aching body about. Just as I get comfy feeding the girls, the boys will begin screaming at each other and demanding I referee. On the rare occasion I start a chore or am in the middle of doing something for me (like a loo trip, or making a drink/snack - oh the luxuries of motherhood!) someone else will pipe up with another job for me to do "drink please" "I hurt" "... *bang* ..sob" Argh.
Rather than resorting to locking myself away and screaming into a pillow (which would be my first choice, but leaves children unattended and likely to "create" further issues for me to get het up over) I would eat. Grab a chocolate bar and stuff the anger down with it. Gulp down some coke and burn my throat with the fizz, instead of the yelling I wanted to do. Get a handful (or two) of caramel bites and focus on the sweet taste rather than feel overwhelmed at the amount to be done today.
I can't do that anymore, it doesn't help. It propagates the sickness rather than treats it. It doesn't even relieve the symptoms, just stalls the awareness of them.
So, today, feeling ill but a whole heap better than I did every day 70lbs ago I decided I would eat something "comforting", but also good for my body. I got the kids involved in playing with their toy garage, chucked the disney Cars dvd on, and got into the kitchen.
Today is blackberry day, I had intended to eat them late this afternoon, as a "pudding" .. but I figured I'd treat myself to pudding for brunch!
The label had suggested to blend them with milk and ice cream.. boring, too many points for a drink, and would mean I missed out trying the texture really. Stewed blackberries sounded lovely, but needed to much time for me to be tempted.
or why not just... serve with hot custard, or add a generous handful to sponge mixture to make moist blackberry muffins.
Oh, OK. That sounds perfect! Made 12 cupcakes, 4 of them with blackberries, then while the halflings devoured theirs I heated through some low fat custard and the remaining berries and served myself a really comforting plate of food.. 8 points!! Worth every one and very filling.
Another thumbs up, blood sugar and peace is restored.