Sunday, October 30, 2011

ready to step on the scale

Feel like I'm very steadily back into the groove now. Spent Friday with a friend, letting the kids bounce around soft play while we drank coffee and caught up. 

29/29 PP (18 weekly remaining)
1194 kcal - burned 370 kcal through exercise
8268 steps = 3.44 miles

Saturday I had my appointment at the gym to do 'bodystat' and have an instructor session on the Powerplate. I was amazed at the fact the powerplate actually worked, and am going back next week for my second go. The bodystat readout was useful too, and a nice surprise was my hip:waist ration being under .80 again!

47/29 PP (0 weekly remaining)
1864 kcal - burned 485 kcal through exercise
8257 steps = 3.44 miles

So - more water needed according to bodystat. Water app agrees, says 3.5 litres a day, not 2. So today I did. And gymmed - already feeling I can do more. 

8 minutes warm up on the bike @ 85rpm
a minute stretching ^_^
15 minutes cross trainer @ 8kmph up & downhill
10 minutes stepper @ 3.5 floors a minute
2 x 12 reps chest press 20 kg
2 x 12 reps row 25 kg
2 x 12 reps shoulder press 12.5 kg
2 x 12 reps leg press 40 kg
5 minutes recline bike @ 65rpm
2 minutes stretching

Starting at the gym has stalled my weightloss, according to my scales, still I'm sure once the water settles it'll be fine. I'm going to be back down from last weeks 190.5 anyway!

40/29 PP (31/42 AP remaining)
1521 kcal - burned 1032 kcal through exercise
9906 steps = 4.12 miles

Thursday, October 27, 2011

No one ever drowned in sweat

Had a HUGE headache after gym on Tuesday, barely moved at all on Wednesday and felt really rubbish. Ate many points too, but tracked it all and did NOT binge. Just ate some high fat stuff (coconut yoghurt, seeds, nuts etc) that made for a healthier body come bedtime, but a high PP day.

51/29 PP (22 weekly remaining)
1762 kcal - burned 223 kcal through exercise
4970 steps = 2.07

Yesterday was a far better day. Very careful and mindful of what I was doing and eating, and went back to the gym in the evening, determined to do my training plan to the letter. I did. 

8 minutes warm up on the bike @ 85rpm
a minute stretching ^_^
15 minutes cross trainer @ 8kmph
10 minutes stepper @ 3.5 floors a minute
2 x 12 reps chest press 17.5 kg
2 x 12 reps row 25 kg
2 x 12 reps shoulder press 12.5 kg
2 x 12 reps leg press 35 kg
5 minutes recline bike @ 65rpm
2 minutes stretching

Then walking the mile uphill home ^_^ Felt goooood.

33/29 PP (18 weekly remaining)
1354 kcal - burned 1032 kcal through exercise
9905 steps = 4.12 miles

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

death at the gym earns a snicker bar

Is close to what I must have looked like working out the activity points I earnt at the gym last night. So much sweat, in public. And for a snickers bar???!!! I so wasn't wasting those hard won points on chocolate, I've hoarded them for more latte instead!

Made my way around quickly, managed to get my routine done inside an hour, so pretty cool and should be doable 4-5times a week.

Tuesday - 31/29 PP (44 weekly remaining) earned 8 AP
1229 kcal - burned 867kcal through exercise
8253 steps = 3.43

Woke up today with a headache and it's raining and blugh. Been stuck in all day with kids who are getting less and less amused with the walls. Must *do* something tomorrow.

Trying to convince myself to gym tonight, might wait and see what mood Sam is in though. We ended up arguing a bit last night, and I'm not in the headspace to be adult about not bawling my eyes out if it happens again. 

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Could have been so so much worse

Didn't actually get to weigh in yesterday, as the kids are still all out of whack, and by the time we were all up and ready, it was too late.

Still, I know my scales are pretty much bang on, so jumped up...

Miles walked - 22

previous weight -187 BMI 32.1
current weight - 190.5 BMI 32.7
gain - 3.5lb
% gain - 1.87%

Could have been a lot worse. But then I thought about it. Though I have been off track, and eaten too much. I HAVE NOT BINGED. In fact several times I've just not started eating what was on my plate if I realised I was full already. A few times I got big portions, then chucked half away once I was 'satisfied'. Not over full. Satisfied!! 

I've not gone shopping for baskets full of crap that I then quietly eat hidden out of view. I've not looked back at a days eating and felt sick at myself. I think, for the first time ever. I am really, really getting my head screwed on right.

The BIG issues are making bad choices in what I'm eating, not amounts. Lack of exercise and eating wheat again. After my gym induction last night I'm fairly sure sticking to the plan my trainer drew up will sort the exercise part, and to be able to do it I'm going to have to kick wheat, or die of breathlessness on the elliptical!

Monday, October 24, 2011

Just did it

I went to the Gym! Was so nervous about going, but I'd promised myself, and my itchy flaky tat was a good reminder all day.

As it was I was a lot less bothered about the other people there once I got going. Realising how unfit I am was painful, but that will only improve now! Have booked to do a 'bodyscan' on Saturday - will be very detailed picture of the state of my bod right now, and where it *should* be.

Going back tomorrow night to work through the training plan I've been drawn up. Ouch.

Back to tracking each day here too - need to stay on top of that for now.

All in all, a good day.

32/29 PP (46 weekly remaining) earned 7 AP
1415 kcal - burned 654kcal through exercise
10124 steps = 4.21 miles

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Skinny small latte to go please

On my way home after pulling myself up off the sofa and to the gym - induction booked for tomorrow night, though I did have my kit with me ready to go if they had space!

45 mins until the next train (gah, Sunday) and I've got costacash on my loyalty card, so I went to the cafe. Looked at the cakes, panini and flapjack - but the cleansing feeling of having made positive steps stopped me.

So here I am - slurping my skimmed latte on the platform waiting for a train. Even though I'm guessing I must be up 5lbs again and feel a little bit annoyed at the slip, I'm happy that a 2 week long bust is only 5lbs now. Reckon the new personal trainer will scare those off me!!

- Does this post seem more intelligent than average? Posted from my smartiPhone

No surprises

I love how very obvious I am when I fall off plan. It's never a little thing.

For 2 weeks now I've not tracked, or stayed off wheat, or drank enough water, or worked out, or blogged.

Realised yesterday I was at that point, where I need to do something *now* or it'll lead to a spiral of doom. That's melodramatic, but totally true.

I put too much importance on hitting the 50lbs off for my birthday 4 weeks ago. When it didn't happen I went a bit mad. I've not made specific targets for myself that I *know* I can reach. Saying I'll lose X by Z is difficult, because at the end of the day, I can ensure that my weight is going down, but never choose how much. It's not an exact enough science!

I'd been thinking that I could skip weigh in tomorrow as my mum is away anyway, and claw back to where I was, then try to hit 50lbs off for the front of November. Once there I could have a 'reward' yadda yadda...

What I NEED is to get back on it now. So I need to look at what I am letting hold me back.

  • Not tracking - so reloaded the app (it had been so long it had crashed :s) and tracked breakfast properly.
  • Not staying off wheat - I know that this is so important, I stay of wheat I feel better, I eat better, I move more. Simple. Have chucked out wheaty naughties, all gone, only my clean, good foods left for me now.
  • Not drinking my water - have started the day with a pint of water instead of a latte. Must go to the tap and not the coffee machine when I fancy a drink!
  • Blogging - going to make myself check in every day again until it's all fallen into place.
  • Not working out. This one is where I'm going to reward myself NOW, for making the choice to get back up. After the shred I want to be using weights more, and with it being dark by the time Sam is home I don't feel safe running (roads here are busy and pavements narrow) so I'm off to join a gym this afternoon. 0_0 

I'm hoping to go 4/5 times a week, for 90mins. It's a monthly membership, so if I'm being unrealistic in thinking I have the time, I'm not tied to a contract.
Not looking forward to feeling flabby and a n00b, but I want to use their stuff, so I gotta go.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

poorly sick

Missed weigh in Monday because I was in bed with a fever. Since then Sam has been ill, and I've been off focus.

Feeling quite a bit better today though, and aware that last week was a bad one anyway. Got to really focus on planning food, tracking properly and getting enough exercise, I can still the mojo slipping.

To spur me on I went and got started on my boxer grrrl ink, as a 30 day shred celebration. Got the outline and shading done, going back in 2-3 weeks to get colour finished and my tattoo artist is excited to wrap it all together as a half sleeve.
It's placed underneath my 'not afraid' tattoo, and is perfect for getting my fear-free strong self back on it.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

and off again ^_^

Been a hard fought week last week, busy, but not particularly active, lots of triggers for thoughtless eating.

I used all my weekly points, all my activity points, and had a couple days where I had to guesstimate amounts. But I did something right, as there was a 2lb loss at the scale yesterday. Phew.

Miles walked - 35.3

previous weight -189 BMI 32.4
current weight - 187 BMI 32.1
loss - 2lb
% lost - 1.06%

Only did 1 session of Zumba, 1 run and 1 Shred this week. Not enough. Need to do 5 days next week, and stick within propoint allowance.

Feeling good though, have a few easy, happy weeks ahead going into winter. 6lbs to get the 50lbs off. Aiming to do that by the end of October, as well as finish the c25k plan.

Monday, October 03, 2011

3lb gain

On Friday morning I saw 184 on the scales. In just 3 days I put enough food in my body to gain 3lbs weight. Whoops!! Stepping up to the scales this morning, I knew I would have gained, but it felt fine. I really am so pleased with the head changes this time around.

*So* glad that I did the shred, running, Wii fit and walking to earn the activity points (and metabolism) that meant it wasn't a bigger gain.

I know that getting back on track this week, I'll see a good loss next week, so that's what I'll do. I'm not feeling upset/set back. This is a BIG change, it's not a race, it's *one* week, and a totally expected result.

Hoping to chuck the wheat bloat and run 3/4 times this week to pull a 7lb ish loss - that'd feel a bit good!

Miles walked - 35.4

previous weight -186 BMI 31.9
current weight - 189 BMI 32.4
gain - 3lb
% gain - 1.61%

Sunday, October 02, 2011


Bugger, bugger, bugger.. been trying to outrun this binge all week, and thought I'd done it.

To be honest, it wasn't a bad one. A chorizo ciabatta and some Nutella on bread - but it wasn't measured/tracked and I know I've gone way over points.

Then Sunday night we had pizza. Again, didn't eat huge amounts - but too much, wrong foods and heaps of wheat.

Anything less than a 4lb gain tomorrow would be awesome, oops.

10960/4948 (4.6 miles)
29/29 pp & 4 ap (1367/1200 kcal)

14846/4948 (6.2 miles)
total feck up....

6034/4948 (2.5 miles)